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| lets see whatd i do todaaaaay.. i watched 2 movies well the first one i only watched the whole middle... it was called 15 and pregnant or something.. damn lifetime movies... anyway it was like about this girl who, obviously, was 15 and she got pregnant and her bf left her or something and then they got back together after she told him that she was pregnant and then he left her again and blah blah blah.. it reminded me alot of rachels whole pregnancy thing.. the girls younger sister was like FUCK THIS IM LEAVING! and thats totally what i was gunna do if rachel didnt have an abortion. and yeah the movie was kinda sad.. then the other movie i watched was called suzanne's diary for nicholas.. saddest movie in the fucking world.. this lady had a heartattack and after that she found out that it would be a big risk for her to have children.. so her bf left her cuz he wanted kids... so she was all depressed and stuff and she moved to get away from it and then some guy came to paint her new house and he tried to get her to go on a date with him but she told him that it was too soon.. then she finally went out with him and then they got married and stuff and right before he proposed to her she told him about the risk in having kids and he said he didnt care cuz he only wanted her so theeeeen she found out she was pregnant and everyone tried talking her out of having it but she wanted to anyway... so she had the baby and she was all fine and stuff.. and then when the baby was 4 months old suzanne took him to get pictures... and like when they were done getting developed and stuff she was walking out the door to go pick them up and she was by her car and matt, her husband, was all like byyyye i love uuu.. and then it just showed her turning around and smiling.. just her face... then all the sudden u see an suv type thing laying on its side.. suzanne had a heartattack while driving and she died.. OH OH and suzanne was writing a whole diary for her son nicholas starting with before he was born.. and it was all about the life she had with matt and then just stuff that happened. so then u see matt go to the diary and it was like "nicholas i never had intentions of writing in this but there is something i need to tell u.. blah blah blah... i watch u in ur crib and i put my index finger out for u to hold.. but the thing is, is that ur not in ur crib, u see u were with ur mom that day".. i was like    then i cried alot.. so yeah then it showed like the day she was leaving to get the pictures and while he was saying bye and i love u, it showed that she was holding the baby.. it was so freakin sad.. so yeah but throughout the whole movie it kept going to this other lady and she was reading the diary cuz she was the lady that hooked up with matt after suzanne died.. and matt never told her what happened in his past and stuff... then right when the lady was about to tell him that she was pregnant, he walked out on her, and then he sent her the diary to explain to her what was wrong with him... and she felt soooooo bad for being such a bitch to him all that time.. and when she read the part about suzanne dying, she was like balling. so yeah then they met eachother at some meeting that they always had at noon, and she was like dont u want to start over, dont u want to have a family and get a second chance, and he was like yeah, so she was like trying to hint to him that she was pregnant but she didnt tell him at that meeting, she was just like, i dunno she said something that meant i wont tell u now. then it ended.. then it showed matt and the lady and there baby all in a picture.. it was so freakin sad omg. u people have to watch it. its like my favorite movie.. and it wasnt a lifetime movie... anyway, i went toooooo pacsun today and got some shoes they werent exactly the ones i wanted but they will do... then i went to walmart and everywhere else in this city.. it was fun except for rachel being a bitch the whole time and trying to act like my mother but it was ok.. im off now. | | |
|  i guess this thing isnt SO bad... waaaaay confusing tho.. im still keeping my livejournal. im not in a very good mood right now.. i decided im not going to school tomorrow for alot of reasons. i feel like im losing everyone really fast.. first it was pam then it was mike then leah and ive been slowly losing charlotte. and ive only wanted friendships out of all of them.. i dont see y it is so hard to stay friends with these people.. i no that im the one that fucked everything up with all of them but doesnt anyone believe in second chances anymore? i just dont get it sometimes and i dont think i can get over it... these r people that i can not live without.. these r people that have helped me out the most... i went to pam for everything.. jeez she helped me with my life for soooo long, she understood everything that i was/am going through. mike helped me realize how to treat people in a relationship.. after treating someone like shit for 2 years and then losing them and realizing that u still love them.. thats hard. leah helped me out with so many problems that i had.. and i dunno i just fucked it up with our friendship. charlotte is such a different story from everyone else.. since i need her the most.. just as a friend. she could make me so freakin happy i cant even explain it. if youve read my livejournal then u already know.. anyway i watched some lifetime movie tonight... i was all into it and stuff. it was crazy it was about some type of hospital thing and some girl needing a liver.. and then some girl tried to commit suicide but they saved her... ok now... if i tried to kill myself and someone took me to the hospital and i lived then i would be PISSED.. hmm.. that would be so depressing. yeah then i watched ellen degeneres or however u spell her name.. and that was FUNNY she was acting like she was a COMEDIAN.. but there was one part that made me like crack up.. she was talking about like how everyone is all old now and she was like tomorrow everyone should just go up to a total stranger on the street, poke them and say UR IT! hahahahaa then run away and see if they do it to someone else.. then she was like u could have the whole street of adults playing the game and people walking around with breifcases going "whos it, OH I AM!" it was freakin great u dont even no. i was laughing so hard and i was by myself so i felt really stupid.. anyway my hand hurts and i dont feel good so im going now to do useless stuff.
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| well now i have this stupid thing... i like my livejournal better but yeah i have nothing to say really | | |
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